A smile that didn’t last very long; laughter – faded away stayed with me but a short period of time. A fleeting moment of heart-felt pleasure; wanted it to last forever. This experience called happiness – why so short. Had a taste of it – loved it – couldn’t hold on to it. What’s the secret?
In pursuit of happiness, joy everlasting. Can’t buy it – borrow it – do I deserve it – not sure of it. Still desperate for some affection, why can’t I find some happiness. It escapes me though I try and try. What comes so easily for others seems a hardship for me – why oh why?
Un-be-known to me I had the power all the time. I’m responsible for my joy and happiness; no one can take it unless I allow it. I’m the master of my universe; my destiny is mine not anyone else. I don’t need anyone’s permission. There’s power in the tongue – say it – own it – believe it – act on it and watch it materialize right before your very eyes.
Weakness – speaking of myself; giving up my power – allowing others to invade my life. Drained all the happiness I had inside. Listening – trying to be a good friend stole my joy and happiness. They raided my space sucked the air right out of the room leaving me choking on their sorrow and pain. Misery loves company that’s oh so true; suddenly I was in the midst of a pity party – they seem to waddle in.
Depression set in, my day didn’t start out that way. I breathe their sadness, absorbed their heartache. Their problems became mine, their hopelessness broke my heart. Don’t let others put their burdens on you. Tell them to turn it over to Jesus like I did.
Reflections on a life once lived in peace and harmony. I was happy once upon a time until I strayed from Jesus. Thought I had it all full of materialistic things, plenty of so-called friends. A thirst I couldn’t quench, a bottomless pit too deep to fill up. I was in control I thought. Didn’t realize my life was spinning out of control.
Lessons learned – happiness begins from within. In pursuit of happiness, my quest is over at last. I had it, didn’t know it – made the connection after much prayer and devotion. A commitment made long ago a pledge to Jesus Christ my Lord. Happiness I feel at last –– thank you God for the peace, joy and tranquility I feel each time I pray.
“For the kingdom of God is not meat and drink; but righteousness, and peace, and joy in the Holy Ghost” – Romans 14: 17
By: Yvonne C. Freeman
Y: Life With Jesus Christ